Confession is a gift, a way of setting yourself before God’s holiness for untangling. John the Baptist calls us to “keep with repentance.” In part, I believe this means inviting the posture of confession into every act and attitude so that the seed of God’s Word may send its roots down deep into well-tilled soil.
I scribbled a short confession last night after spending a few hours learning from an Anglican priest. He spoke a lot about “the rule of life” and demonstrated a powerful focused-ness on Christ, as though he was just a spoke revolving around a center. Being exposed to this kind of life stung like salt water in an open cut. The prayer below was the result of the healthy stinging.
I pray that you would learn to love confession as a way of opening your little hands to the grace of God.
I confess my idolatrous pace,
my resistance to Your rhythms,
my tangled heart and mind.
You want to speak; I say You’ll have to yell over the crowd.
You want to move; I am not good at this dancing.
You want to heal; I desperately cover the wound.
I fear You have become a footnote in my day, and therefore my days, and therefore my life.
I fear You have become a heartless habit before meals, a line before bed.
I fear You are one of many tabs.
You say to take off my shoes, but I know nothing of Sacred.
You say to receive, but I am too production-oriented for Your Sabbath gifts.
You say to speak, but I still microwave my prayers.
But I have seen You in Your sanctuary
and beheld Your power and Your glory.
Because Your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify You.
There is a famous logion ” Every day I examine myself three times” which asked people to keep self-inspection all the time. Is this also a kind of confession, just not in front of Christ?